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Why aren't I very active online anymore (especially in the furry fandom)?

Because I won't tolerate rapists.
Because I won't tolerate dog fuckers.
Because I won't tolerate kiddie porn.
Because I can't feel safe around people who are harmful or the people that defend them.

I've never been able to stomach the idea of ignoring a person harming another living thing while hiding behind "just don't look". I take action.
I pull over for car accidents to see If I can help.
I take in homeless animals and find them suitable homes.
I provide support for abused children and adults.
I volunteer for good causes.

If ignoring and tolerating abuse because it doesn't directly effect you is the direction online communities are heading in, I don't want any part of it.

I'm too old for this shit.
  This year was especially strange for me, with a lot of mixed feelings. I didn't hear from my family until several days after and even, as silly as it sounds, DeviantArt sent me a belated Happy Birthday. Seems silly, but in my current state, it really compounded how unimportant I feel.  I'd like to send a late, but big thanks to those who wished me Happy Birthday here. You really brightened my mood, even if I didn't thank everyone individually. :hug:

 I have a few things I'd really like to get off my chest, I'll try to keep it short and sweet, as it were.
For those who have known me for some time might know that I suffer from Schizophrenia. I've been through many treatments, and medications with mixed results. Recently I lost my insurance, and with the federal government shut down, my application for assistance has been put on hold. I simply do not have money to see doctors anymore, and my mental health has been steadily declining over the past few months. Most of the people I'm friends with currently, met me when I was healthy and functioning better. So, with my health deteriorating, I'm slowly becoming a different person, and often those friends don't seem to understand how to react to it. For those who share this plight, of either side of it, I'd like to offer a this great resource that can greatly help understand how to understand and help the people you love who happen to be mentally ill.

Helping a Person with Schizophrenia
If a family member or someone close to you has schizophrenia, you may be struggling with any number of difficult emotions, including fear, guilt, anger, frustration, and hopelessness. The illness may be difficult for you to accept. You may feel helpless in the face of your loved one's symptoms. Or you may be worried about the stigma of schizophrenia, or confused and embarrassed by strange behaviors you don't understand. You may even be tempted to hide your loved one's illness from others...(continue)

It's difficult to live with mental illness, and of course can be trying to those around us, but we are still good people worth loving and getting to know. Please give us the chance to enrich your lives, and to have you enrich ours. 

DISCLAIMER: I don't expect any of these artists to draw me art for free. 
This is a wishlist of people I'd love to commission someday or if someone feels generous, can commission for me. 
(In other words, this list isn't meant to be a plea for free art.)

Josiah:  Josiah the Fiend Hunter - Reference Sheet by Mottenfest
Sleight-of-Hand: 2011 Sleight-of-Hand Reference by Mottenfest
Diedrick:  In Depth Reference: Diedrick Lanza by Mottenfest  Diedrick Lanza-Uniform and Pokemon by Mottenfest

:iconkajito: Sleight-of-Hand conbadge
:iconkenket:-Sleight-of-Hand conbadge
:iconkittiara: Sleight-of-Hand Byzantine style conbadge
:iconcatandcrown: Diedrick and His Team
:iconpatrickbrown: Josiah
:iconrimestar: Diedrick or Josiah
:icontracyjb: Josiah ACEO
:iconoffrecord: Josiah
:iconvirus-ac: Josiah
:iconalgenpfleger: Josiah Artist Proof sketch/ACEO
:iconvelinov: Josiah Artist Proof sketch/ACEO
:icondaverapoza: Josiah Artist Proof sketch/ACEO
:iconchasestone: Josiah Artist Proof sketch/ACEO
:iconclintcearley: Josiah Artist Proof sketch/ACEO
:iconchasestone: Josiah Artist Proof sketch/ACEO
:iconvhu: Diedrick and His Team
:icongold-seven: Josiah
:iconcoyox: Josiah fighting werewolves and ghouls and other gross stuff
:iconpsycrowe: Josiah My pokemon team: Garchomp, Scizor (shiny and the only female), Chandelure (shiny), Dragonite (shiny), Noivern, and Haxorus